If only I could blog and nurse at the same time. These early months are such a mix of busyness and downtime. All hurry up and wait. I am doing my very best to enjoy that downtime and soak up every ounce of babiness, because this time around, I know all too well how fleeting it is.
I'm not used to sitting still with little else to occupy my time but the coo of a little one, mostly it is pure heaven, but it also sets me up for unrealistic goals. Sure, most of the time breastfeeding also involves reading a book to Jude or scrolling through instagram and pinterest, but it has also left me with lots of time to think. I have thought of at least one hundred posts I'd like to write and projects I'd like to create. My list of to-makes does not reflect my very limited time to actually make anything.
It's a bit frustrating. Oh, and I'm more than a little sleepy. When I sit down to write, as I am now with Jude off the school and Ronan strapped to my chest, the words come out in a jumble. My grammar and spelling, which were never great, are down right horrid (seriously, I just spelled horrid with one r). Not that I am complaining, I am absolutely loving having a baby again. And Jude has become such a little man, a true pleasure to hang out with. My days are full, but mostly full of wonderful. Yes, I'm tired. Sure, it's rare I make it through the day without being covered in spit-up or pee or both. But really and truly, I am so in love with this little family of mine.
I simply wish that there was a way to hit the pause button. I wish little ones didn't grow so fast. And I wish I could sneak an hour or two in the day for a little creating. I know such a time will come soon enough, but I thought I'd check in and let my lovely readers know how I feel. I've got so much I want to tell you. So many pictures to edit and post. So many items to make and share. So little time to do any of the above.
What I'm really trying to say (and if you've slogged though this post to get to it, God love you, you are a friend real and true) is that I might not be posting much while I try to find a new rhythm and catch a few zzz's. I hope you'll understand. I'm pretty sure you will, you're awesome like that. Just know that behind the radio silence is my racing mind, just dying to write and sew and make and share.
Happy Summer friends.
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