I've reached the half way point, yippee! I'm finally feeling better; although, I'm waiting for my appetite to return. It feels strange to not be constantly hungry, but if it continues, I'm sure I'll be pretty happy about it post-baby. Other than hellish nausea, this pregnancy feels so different from my experience with Jude, it's such a trip. I am very grateful that this little one spared me a face full of acne, that's a real score right there; and I've been feeling happy little kicks for a quite a while now. Jason even felt a little kick last night, so cool! That might be my very favorite part of being pregnant.
We had our ultrasound last week. For those of you who don't follow on instagram, want to guess the sex? Here's a hint, a stack of fabric from a recent trip to Joann's:
Yep, it's another boy!
When we had our sonogram they told us everything looked perfect, and I cried tears of joy. Then they told us it was a boy ... they let me go to the bathroom, where I proceeded to shed a few more tears...not so joyful this time. I struggled with whether to admit this second bit publically; I was so embarassed for not just being thrilled to have a healthy baby. But I like to keep it real, and sharing is caring, so I figure it might help someone else with similar feelings. We always wanted just two children. Financially and physically, having babies is tough stuff; awesome, but difficult. So here's the thing, we tried really hard to have a girl this time: Shettles, Chinese gender chart, supplements, finger crossing: you name it, we did it. The universe decided to bless us with a little boy instead.
I had my moment of sorrow; mourning the tiny skirts I wouldn't sew, the tutu clad ballet classes I wouldn't witness, etc...and then I got over it. First of all, I am thrilled to be having a healthy baby. Second, I loved having sisters, and I love the idea of Jude having a brother. Third, we've decided not to make any rash desicsions about family size just yet. Forth, the hand-me down's! All those mama-mades will be worn again. Fifth, I absolutely love having a son, so I know I'm going to love having another one just as much. Sixth, I already got to experience all of the girl stuff with my little sisters. The list goes on and on. But you get the idea, I am so grateful and truly excited to be welcoming another tiny gentleman into our family.
Now if we could just settle on a name ... any and all suggestions are welcome!