I feel as though I spent 2016 slightly listless, I started the year determined to change too much. Trying to force myself to be the type of person that loves to fill in a planner and schedule my every move. Expecting myself to somehow loosen up, be more present, create a tidy home, and get more done all at once. I made headway in many areas, but lost focus often and in looking back at the year I don't feel as though I was well served by trying to take on so much. And yet here I am at the dawn of 2017 running impossible lists of goals through my head. Struggling to choose just one, or two, or three things to focus my energy on. Wanting to do it all, even when I know I can't. I think it comes down to the struggle between accepting who I am and wanting to improve who I am. Growth and change are wonderful, but so is embracing your true self. I love the idea of choosing a word or phrase to help guide your year. Something that can serve as a signpost for progress, something to refer to when making decisions, and perhaps most importantly something that can change meaning as needed. This year I think I've found something that dwells right in between staying true to myself and asking more of myself.
It's not flashy or romantic, I don't expect it to lead to some major transformation, but it does feel like a nice solid challenge. This year I hope to be guided by two simple words: follow through. I want to see projects not just to completion but all the way through until they are cleaned up after and maybe even documented. I will always be a serial starter, so I don't expect to finish everything, but I hope to follow through on the things that feel worthy or inspiring. I plan to follow through on my commitment to be more politically active, no matter how draining and hopeless it sometimes feels. I'm also hoping that this acknowledgement of follow through with help me say no to extra commitments that I don't truly have time for by seeing them in a more realistic light. Mostly I'm hoping to feel a little more on top of things in 2017.
How about you? Do you choose a word, phrase, list of goals? I'd love to hear what you've got planned!
P.S. - If the end of 2016 made you feel hopeless, this is a great read.